Of Boys and Dreams

I have this friend, we'll call him J. I've known J since the age of 16. We did the boyfriend/girlfriend thing, we did the winter formal thing, we did the breaking up thing. I've always had a soft spot in my heart for J, it's more of a concern than a secret crush. J has always had troubles with life. He didn't necessarily make the best decisions, he didn't necessarily have the best emotional support from family, he has never had the best of luck. At age 16 we clicked right away, dated for a while, had a mutual adoration. Breaking up was my decision, because at age 16 J's type of problems were an extremely heavy burden on my self-indulgent life. After a bit of anger and avoidance on his part, we re-connected as friends and saw eachother once in a while at social functions. We also have many mutual friends who tell me about his life now. Not much different than back in the high school days. Still making the same decisions, not having the best of luck. The soft spot in my heart remains as strong as always, I tend to worry about J a lot.

Last night I had a dream about J. I haven't talked to anybody about him in a few months, nothing jogged my memory of him in the last few months. It was just a very random dream. One in which J did not fare well in the end. I write this, just in case that by saying this out loud, the bad omen will break and the dream will just be a random nothing. I feel the need to cover my bases on this one.


Predo said...

I think dreams like this are simple a sign of your own internal concern. A need to protect, if you will. I don't think it is an omen that something wicked this way comes. I think you are simply involved in your worry for him.

He is lucky to have a friend like you. I think you should tell him that you had a dream that concerns you. Maybe he needs advice and not really direction.

I love that you reconnected!

(Sometimes!) Serendipitous Girl said...

I echo Predo. I hope everything is okay.

And on a way more selfish note. Let's get together for a girly bevvie. You, Predo & Me! E-mail me and we'll figure out what works. I was looking fo yo e-mail but to no avail.

sometimesserendipitousgirl@gmail.com (aka. the LONGEST e-mail addy ever)