On Motivation

Mostly everybody can relate to lacking motivation at times. You want to get off your ass and do something, but the ass part of you just doesn't wanna move. Sometimes, not going completely batshit crazy is the only motivation that keeps you going through the day.

I have come to realize that the year 2009 has not been very nice to me. I don't know what I did to piss it off so badly, but it has decided to kick me in the ass over and over again.

Beginning in February all the way through today, this afternoon in fact, I have tallied a total of ONE great thing that has happened (defining great as in "Wow, I will remember this for a long time") and 4 life-changing awful things. And by awful I mean health issues and multiple family member deaths. Just when something good finally happens, 2009 comes back and says, "I don't think so, lady. This isn't your year."

And the one thing that has truly saved me from going into a deep dark place and never coming out? Friggin exercise. I'm not prone to depression, but I do get some anxiety here and there. Exercise has truly kept it from surfacing, which is such a god-send considering the circumstances of the last 8 months. I have never experienced so much as I have in the last year, but I think I have dealt with it pretty well. That is definitely due to a great support system that I am very lucky to have. But it is largely due to the fact that I get all that aggression out on some concrete or a bike.

And the new gym that is opening right down the street next week? It better watch the hell out. The year's not over yet.