Moving On


As I wrap up the final details of selling my part of the company, I am starting to finally detox myself of the job I have had for the last 2.5 years. Maybe this all happened at a good time. Maybe this all happened for a reason. Maybe I wasn’t meant to be doing what I was doing. I certainly have realized that hindsight definitely is 20/20. Every day that goes by my eyes are open just a tiny bit wider to the wrongdoings that were going on without my knowing it. The universe is trying to tell me something and I’m finally starting to listen.

This afternoon I packed up all of my files in my home office and something happened in the process. I started to feel lighter and lighter. It’s like a cleansing process of sorts. After I finished packing it all, I went to my computer and cleared out all of my work-related links. I took my work blog account off of my personal blog account. All of these little things are making me feel like a new person, like I’m ready to move on. The last of the details will be wrapped up tomorrow, and all of those files and work items that were just packed up in my home office are leaving my house tomorrow. Then it will just be me. Back to basics. No more covering things up, no more stressing about keeping stories straight and making sure that certain people don’t know certain things.

I’ve been going to the gym more. I’ve been walking everyday. I’ve been going to the grocery store and cooking dinner every night. All of these things were originally meant to keep me busy, so that I don’t go stir crazy. Now I realize that all of these things I am doing for myself, as part of cleansing from the last 2.5 years.

Don’t get me wrong, I learned a lot at this job. I was a business owner. But things went wrong, and now the biggest lesson that I learned is to always listen to your gut. Don’t ever let the money and perks stand in the way of your conscience. And most of all, never ever forget who you are. I almost lost these things in the process of thinking that this was the best situation for me. Now as I interview for jobs that people actually want me for I realize that I’m so much better than that. I’d rather be poor & happy than rich and selling myself out.

8 comments:

Derek said...

Well said! I'm glad this whole thing isn't keeping you down and it seems you have definitely put a positive spin on it. Good luck!

Stacy said...

everything happens for a reason...change is scary but I think charactor is build evey time you have to face something like this.
It sounds to me like this is a huge turning point and one you will be happy happend when you look back at it years from now,so even if it doesin't feel like something to be congratulated on yet...congratulations in advance:)

minijonb said...

You have an amazing outlook on this period of change. Are you getting a bigger buzz from the catharsis of letting this job/business go or from the endorphin release while working out again?

ab said...

minijonb: The buzz is definitely from letting it all go. The exercise is strictly from a lack of shit to do. But it does help.

hot babe said...

I always seem to be surprised by the clarity gained through a little distance. One would think that eventually I would stop being so surprised by it, but alas, my surprise continues.

I think it's great that you have such a positive perspective of everything. And I say as long as you can pay your bills & find time to enjoy the things that make it all worthwhile, then it doesn't matter if you're making minimum wage. However, from the sound of it, you're a hot commodity right now & will be doing much better than than the average Joe. And besides, if you ever want to start another business in the future, you now have a great knowledge base of what (and probably who) to avoid. Best of luck!!!

Orchid Lover said...

Great to hear! I wish you the best of luck with everything. It was definately a great post as I sit in a job that I am not particularly fond of. Keep your head up and good luck at the interviews! Good thinking on getting out at the time you needed to

Kiddo78 said...

Good for you! I have my fingers crossed for you (not right at this moment, of course, since I do need to type, but you know what I mean anyway)!! Happy for you. You can be a "cleanse thyself" consultant now!

Derek said...

Just checking back...hope everything is working out!