I Have A Secret...

We were invited to a block party on the next block, sort of as honorary guests. It kicked ass. We had so much fun meeting new people our age. I was talking to these two ladies who had recently had babies. These were 2 of the cutests little girls. Kaleigh is 2 months old and Olivia is almost 1 year old. So we were talking and I told them about how I am not so much afraid to be a parent as I am of the 9 months leading up to it. Petrified to be more specific. So we talked & talked & they were very honest with me. After the night was over I sorta thought about how nice it would be to be a little family & how freakin cute our baby would be. Ben would be a great Dad. The kid would have great eyes & hair.

My mind started to wander & I couldn't believe that I was considering this. I still am. Unfortunately Ben is extremely hard to talk to about this subject. We once had a "scare" when I thought that I was pregnant. When we found out that I wasn't Ben told me that he was a little disappointed. That was about 2 years ago. Now the subject is quickly changed, usually by Ben. He's very hard to talk to about this. We'll see.

4 comments:

katie said...

How exciting! At least one of you is thinking about it. Just tell Ben that it will be so fun trying. Sex round the clock!

Josh said...

yes..the best part about babies is making them..righT? ;)
im not a fan of babies..but i love kids age..2 years..and up.

Stacy said...

Greg was scared to death of the idea...I wish we were more than "blog friends" because I can so,so totally relate.I always casually bring up "when we start trying again,or wouldin't this be a cute kid's name,I have the subject cleverly avoided by Greg.He is the best dad and loves Michael to pieces but is scared to death of the idea of having another before we are "financialy ready" If you decide and go ahead with it,it really is the best thing you will ever experience,it's tough and you start living for your kids in so many ways but I would not have it any other way...if you decide to wait,enjoy every minute because you won't get many once he/she comes along:)

Stacy said...

you would possibly be surprised,I am the biggest baby in the world and I loved being pregnant...sure there are some things I would rather not relive but seriously,I loved it...people fall all over themselves for you,you are the center of attention,you get out of work to go to the doctor and listen to baby's heartbeat...seeing and feeling him/her kicking all around you is the coolest thing i have ever experienced,I cried when he was out because I missed him in there so much...it is odd in a weird way you almost feel lonely...I know it sounds crazy but having him in there was so bonding...o.k. sorry,I will stop...